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Beyond Redemption...  

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"Format Me"What the hell is wrong with me...  that I can do such things in apathy?  I've become incarnate Tyranny,  yet haven't lost my sympathy?  Was once a portrait of humanity...  I'm not a bad person, I know this to be.  Defined by subconscious cruelty...  I don't know what's left of me...  No scalpel can remove this cancer...  No medicinals for my disease...  I try to be a proper romancer,  But only end up doing what I please.  I should be stuck down, with haste, hence:  deleted  Before the last of my remorse and purity is depleted. "Format Me"
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I've Seen Better Days... o/"

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 5, 2007, 11:01 PM
  • Mood: Neutral
For those of you who haven't heard.. Me and Emily are over. I've made some poor choices, none that I am proud of... but I've also made some choices that I believe I can live with.

If you've spoken to Emily, then I'm sorry to say, you've got quite a few lies handed your way. Honestly, everything that's happened is none of your business, but if you've inquired and received your news from Emily or her legions of friends, then you've received a tale mixed with half-truths, outright lies, and not the entire truth at all.

I've done things wrong, even illegal, criminal if you will... but I am getting the help I need, and I am doing things to better myself.

I may be disappearing for a very long time, which honestly no longer scares me. Anything I may or may not face in Prison can not be anything worse than the drama, prejudice, ignorance and down right inhuman betrayal of the past 2 months. I'm homeless, unemployed, and can't afford my medication. I haven't seen my daughter in 2 months. I've been a victim of perjury, and a justice system that in civil matters grants the woman in any relationship credibility beyond any sense of the word. I'm not hiding from my flaws, or my mistakes. I haven't done anything to hide from the consequences of my actions, in fact, my family is downright upset that I haven't even consulted an attorney until after giving a full statement and confession...

I'm handling myself right now better than just about anyone could. I've come clean. I've ended the cycle of lies. I can not say so about whom I once considered my better half. She's not the same person I met, loved, and married. The Emily / Emfrog I knew and loved is dead. I may have had some hand in killing her (not literally.. for she is alive to my knowledge...) but she has chose to become the person she is now, and she'll have to live with her choices as well.

My love goes out to you all. I've lost the respect and trust of many who coined me a friend, but the people who truly know who I am, and know everything about me, are standing by me in this my most trying of times. Best wishes to all of you. Until I know what's happening to me, I will be around if any of you like to talk.. seeing as I don't sleep but 2 hours a night now...

God Bless.

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Devious Information

  • Current Age: 25
  • Current Residence: Hubert, NC
  • Interests: Fixing myself....
  • Favourite movie: Braveheart
  • Favourite band or musician: Metallica - Old School, not the New.
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative or Metal.
  • Favourite artist: Bob Ross - We all need Happy little Trees.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allen Poe - The Master..
  • Favourite photographer: Greenie :nod:
  • Favourite style or digital art: I prefer protraits.. :slow:
  • Operating System: Ubuntu
  • MP3 player of choice: My PC
  • Shell of choice: o.O C: BASH BASH BASH DAMNIT
  • Wallpaper of choice: Waterproof.. works in the bathroom.
  • Skin of choice: Not much for skins...
  • Favourite game: Just about any.
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC Hands Down.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Sponge Bob.. he pwns.
  • Personal Quote: "We often find ourselves lost.. but never find ourselves found."
  • Tools of the Trade: Time and Insanity are all I need.

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=anthylorrel:iconanthylorrel: Mar 13, 2008, 11:14:02 PM
:boogie::cake:Happy Birthday!:party::dance:

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I'm a plushy! Love my flub!

View my art||Hogwarts Live!
!amyperticone:iconamyperticone: Mar 1, 2008, 3:47:55 AM
Wow! You really are a brilliant poet, aren't you?

Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?


It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift

but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
~twinklestaaah:icontwinklestaaah: Feb 15, 2008, 3:41:37 PM
Hi there!

You were watching =twinkle-stah, but that account has since been abandoned and changed to this one. :3

There'll be some new work up there soon, and I hope you continue to enjoy my stuff over there.

Thank you for your patience and continued support. :heart:
~maryblackheart:iconmaryblackheart: Nov 18, 2007, 8:11:56 AM
miaow :kitty:

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sing to life, and to its tragic beauty.
~NikiXXX:iconNikiXXX: Sep 13, 2007, 7:02:14 AM
YOU'VE BEEN HIT BY THE



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ONCE YOU'VE BEEN HIT, YOU HAVE TO HIT 8 PEOPLE! IF YOU GET HIT AGAIN YOU'LL KNOW YOU'RE REALLY sexy! IF YOU BREAK THE cHAIN, YOULL BE CURSED WITH UN*SEXYNESS FOR 10 YEARS SO PASS IT HIT WHO EVER YOU THINK IS sexy

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On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero
~Emfrog:iconEmfrog: Aug 8, 2007, 4:19:33 AM Mood: Lazy
</3 your evil, very very evil.

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:frog:
~WhiteAngelAriah:iconWhiteAngelAriah: Aug 5, 2007, 5:33:44 AM
Hai! :wave: Just dropped by to let you know that I've moved to *white-angel-ariah

:salute:

~transmission out~

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MOVED TO *white-angel-ariah SEE YA THERE! :wave:
=AvalonStarlight:iconAvalonStarlight: Aug 2, 2007, 1:25:48 PM
Cute gallery!! <3

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I <3 :sushi: :boing:
~Serigala88:iconSerigala88: Jul 12, 2007, 5:02:30 AM
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=Anglinagirl:iconAnglinagirl: Jun 27, 2007, 5:44:46 PM
Thanks for the watch, darlign!

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Laura Castleway
:spotlight-left:Gallery :star: *SerendipityStock :star: *Ex-po-zure :spotlight-right:
~Emfrog:iconEmfrog: Jun 27, 2007, 9:36:21 AM
I hate that song D:

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~NurseDie:iconNurseDie: Apr 12, 2007, 4:44:56 PM
Dear Supporter of the controversial and conceptual deviantART artist:
Liart66:

THIS IS A PERSONAL MESSAGE FROM HER SOUL:

I believe in all of artists who support me by watching my work.

My gallery is extensive and conceptual.

For a person to take interest in my style of art, it requires impressive intelligence and the ability to view "art" through the mind of it's creator.
Every time I see a new watcher/supporter on my messages, I always investigate them. I may not respond or comment, but I do follow. I have not been let down by any single person on my list:

[link]

truly I have an amazing group of thinkers on my page/side. It humbles me to know my simple display of art is appreciated because it is the people who support me that inspire me to keep pressing forward with projects.

MY MOST IMPORTANT PIECE OF ART TO DATE

I am hoping *with my fingers crossed* that those who have taken the time to fumble through my vast gallery would grant me one favor:
pretty pretty please:

VIEW MY LATEST PIECE AND LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS ON IT AS WELL AS YOUR VIEWS OF THE CONCEPT.

it would mean the world to me and all of the people who put countless hours into the prep of it.

IN ADDITION TO A SIMPLE CLICK, FULL VIEW, SCROLL, READ AND POSTED COMMENT.

I ASK THAT YOU VIEW THE JOURNAL POSTED FOR MY co-op, ( i am the creator of a true artist's co-op with many members, it is a dream of an entire city and is set in the motion of expanding internationally )
this is a simple favor to ask because i do the same for everyone who requests this of me, knowing that I have little time to even click to view. Supporting artists is what deviantART is about. Art is nothing without opinions on it... good, bad, or indifferent.

CLICK THE LINKS BELOW TO HELP SUPPORT AND BUILD A TRUE ART COMMUNITY, NOT ON THE NET BUT IN TANGIBLE FLESH AND TEARS FROM THE STRUGGLE OF TRYING TO STAY STRONG ENOUGH TO EXPRESS YOURSELF AFTER REJECTIONS, INSULTS, AND SHARP TONGUED OPPOSERS

THE LINKS *crosses fingers that you will take time to read*

[link] < the piece
[link] < the journal
[link] < my main page

through the stars i will bless all those who care about art, artists, and dreams. I will grant my true supporters any wish they chose. Karma is a good thing.

i truly thank all the people who take the time, as it does humble me to no end.

:heart:
Sarah Lester

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There's One Thing We Can Never Find Though We All Believe We've Obtained It.
~pillze69:iconpillze69: Feb 26, 2007, 7:58:12 PM
Today Is Bestfriend Day. (not anymore but eh *shrugs* still sharing round the love )

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

1-3 you're a bad friend
4-6 you're an ok friend
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10-& Up you're a great friend

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Send this rose to everyone you care about!

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PiLLz-E

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PROUD member of =dapride - ~bipride - ~Gay-community-free - ~bi-club - ~Gay-community-free
~little-sketch:iconlittle-sketch: Feb 23, 2007, 3:09:27 PM Mood: Joy
hey, uv been tagged. go to my page to find out wot i mean ^.^

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"ooo shiny metal"
........dude, its foil O_o
~autumnava:iconautumnava: Feb 14, 2007, 2:00:27 PM
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Add a heart and pass it on! <3

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"Congruent thoughts lead the mind by a trail of crums that last only long enough for the crows to come and devour any hope of sanity."--

I hope my gallery earns the honor to please thine eyes.
=unseeliefaery:iconunseeliefaery: Dec 31, 2006, 8:02:41 PM
Happy New Year!!

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:cylon: Number Six: Life has a melody, Gaius. A rhythm of notes which become your existence once played in harmony with God's plan. :cylon:
*Danium:iconDanium: Dec 30, 2006, 4:10:12 PM
Happy 2007 Brandon :heart:
~Estrellada:iconEstrellada: Dec 25, 2006, 10:19:56 AM
merry xmas! Or...whatever you celebrate! :nod:

That all your dreams come true and bla bla bla...IT DOESN'T MATTER!!

Gifts are the real meaning of every celebration! xD

XD well.at least that good things will happen to you!

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"I will hurt myself so much you won't recognize me anymore"
=unseeliefaery:iconunseeliefaery: Dec 25, 2006, 5:57:03 AM
:xmas: :rudolph: :santa:

Merry Christmas!

:xmas: :rudolph: :santa:

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:cylon: Number Six: Life has a melody, Gaius. A rhythm of notes which become your existence once played in harmony with God's plan. :cylon:
~snowballsweets:iconsnowballsweets: Dec 24, 2006, 11:33:09 AM
Just wanted to wish you... A HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! Have a safe Holiday with your family and friends!
:dance:
:santa: :glomp: :glomp:
:hug: :alienxmas: :heart:
:blowkiss: :hug: :hug: :glomp:
:hug: :blowkiss: :love:

~:heart: Gina

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=p If your parents didn't have children, chances are good that you won't either. :eyepopping:

My Planet tutorial here: [link]
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